Something New

All I know is this certainty that I have The Most Justice, Who knows what suits us best.

Life is too short to curse bad things that just happened in our life.

I believe everything happens for a reason.

Better off to look at the mirror doing self-reflection.

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Berawal dari curhatan tahun 2017 ini, saya akan menerjemahkannya ke bahasa Indonesia. Kayaknya ini ditulis ketika ada suatu hal yang terjadi, dan aku pikir orang pertama yang harus nenangin diri ini ketika goyah adalah diri ini sendiri. Mungkin begitulah mengapa blog ini tetap bertahan. Sebuah kumpulan frasa yang tujuannya untuk diri sendiri dulu, syukur-syukur bisa ke orang lain. Kumpulan cerita yang pada akhirnya bersifat self-motivating. Jadi, seburuk-buruknya hal buruk terjadi, ingat terus deh kata-kata macam ini:

Aku cuma tahu sebuah kepastian dimana aku punya Yang Maha Adil, Yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita.
Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk mengutuk hal-hal buruk yang baru saja terjadi pada kehidupan kita.
Aku percaya segala sesuatu terjadi karena suatu alasan.
Sudahlah, lebih baik melihat cermin melakukan refleksi diri.

Up and Up

Seeing things from up there was one of great stuff to do.

From up there i could see all good scenery and realized that I was this tiny tiny little human. A human who still needs to conduct ‘actions’ to the world.
From up there when I walked beneath huge trees and saw leafs dropped, I remembered the cite "No leaf falls but that Allah knows it" (Al Anam:59). Totally reminds me of how nothing in this world that Allah doesn't even know, then all the dirty little unseen-able mistakes I did.

From up there I could get fresh air, get brain-refrezhed, and have tranquility that adds up positivity to my mind, body, and soul.
From up there I could sense how hard it'd be to reach the top. Driving through all the turns, uphill roads, streaming down sweats, most importantly dealing against self-ego and yellings... All struggles would be paid off once I pass those tests. 
From up there I could see the beauty of the other side of my country. I could just be happy even from a tiny district in unpopular place in Indonesia. Being happy is simple, huh?
From up there, all I noticed was the urge to feel grateful.
And that completes everything

Words

I am so lack of power when it comes to convince anyone.

I admit my words were so powerless.

I know it sucks… hahaha L

There were thousand idea in my mind to overcome this problem but no one of them worked well.

At time like that, I was thinking any possible words that may brighten anyone’s mind but then it didn’t work either.

But when you’re unintentionally wanted to say motivated words, it just came out that fluent, beauty, brightening words.

Beautiful words then can only blurt when it comes from within, without any boasting intention. Just require the pure will to absorb the words you say to anyone and to you yourself.

Cause you can’t give advice like you’re 100% right, you’re only 50% right instead, or less. And the rest, you learn back from what comes out from your mouth.

Co-ass life learning

Oh how it’s very dynamic life we’re having.

You won’t realize how meaningful every single chance you have in this life, even a chance just for explanation.

And yes, when we communicate with anyone, maybe it’s hard to tell what you really feel about something. The conversation would lead to be misread.

Somehow it’s good to let one’s feeling settle for a moment but it’s like a bomb that it will eventually explode.

I guess you better talk much, ask anything as much as you know, consider any possibility that may appear, concern in every single aspects that you do, be nice to anyone, and keep smiling even how hard it’d be to put a smile on your face.

Who could do all of them in one time?

I guess I’d raise my hand.

As follow my friends.

The Planner

Okay now 11^th of August 11.22 PM

Before I close my eyes I would like to share something

About the things I am planning

As time goes by, the more I realize that no matter how good and well-managed your plan is, if God doesn’t give permission; then no/ not yet/ not now.

No matter how good and well-managed your plans are, God’s plans are the best plan ever existed. It occurred to me when I was at laboratory trying to conduct this so called experiment of cell culture. I’ve planned each day with my a-to-z to-do list as well, but one day it got stuck. The cells failed to grow. That means I have to ‘rearrange my plan’.

The thing about planning could be the most interesting one yet challenging. At the moment you can measure yourself for how far you’d reach something. But sometimes it leaves worry to yourself whether you can make it through what you wanna reach.

There’s the point, which determines how big your will to pursue the goals you’ve written. Frankly, I write and reflect myself at this writing simultaneously. I am not that good person who can manage this thing, I ain't even an expert on this, but take my advice; you gotta defeat the enemy inside your mind; your worry and also laziness. I am also still working hard on it :’’’)

So, I might need plan B, or maybe plan CDEFGH….Z to let myself remain calm. And in every plan with anything happens inside it, I believe that it’s the best plan God has given to me. After all the things I’ve been striving for, let God do the rest.

I don’t know where I got this words but I realize that if you find something that didn’t fit your dream happens to your life, then you have a choice whether or not to get back up. When you choose to get back up, believe that nothing can stop yourself until you reach your dream; the bigger dream only God knows when you’ll reach. Have a faith on The One who gives you what you need, eventhough it may not what you wanted. Have a faith on The One who has everything that you wanna reach on your dreams.

Reflection

Istigfar.
In any place, any when. When you feel empty, go find 'mirror' to reflect yourself.
What you've done. And what you left behind.
May we always know how to make ourselves better, surround with pure real happiness. May we always be guided to the right path that get us convenient.
Not only outside, but in the heart.


Malang, 29 Juli 2015

Hold On Hope

I know I have to walk through the dark, the dark and winding road. And I’m gonna be a little lighted candle that brightens the way. At least that's what I am hoping now.

And I believe there’s one thing that I can have my hand to hold on tight. It’s my willingness. It’s my mere willingness that has given me sort of bravery to shout a long the way. And as long as I still got my hand holding, the spirit will emerge as the best efforts also accompany me..... to reach my dreams.

Go get yours!

Wake Up

“BHAHAHAHA”

My dad all of a sudden laughed of what I was up to at that time.

He prolly couldn't imagine his daughter became this person.

My dad even couldn't imagine how the world is with me still being like this.

That was funny and tragic at the same time, actually. Funny cause he didn’t believe me that much. Tragic because my own dad –the guy that knows me better than any other guy- said I am just not good enough at such thing I couldn't explain here.

Then he told me how to be the good enough person that he meant.

The point is you can say that your world is okay and so far so good. But there are other people out there who could see and /judge/ what you’re doing (oh I hate the word judge!—but this one is positive). Those people who, let say, judge you may give some critics and advices to wake you up from the zone you thought is fine.

Yeah, wake up.

You’ll always need to wake up.

Quote from Mom

Today my mom just emphasized, you don't need to be worried, when you lost walking at long and winding road, when you got stuck in the middle of reaching your goal, when you got heaps of complicated problems.

There's always a reason why you succeed at one thing, and failed at one other thing. There's always something to learn in the middle of your journey of life.

Cause you got this Best Scenario Planner, Allah, she continued.

Reckless

I somehow becoming the person I am not. I turned out not to be the one as I ever was.

Don't.

Just don't let that happen. 

Time is (not) running out (yet)

Dear my little time, would you like to stay a lil bit longer?
Dear my little time, would you like to give me a chance?
Dear my poor little time, would you like to slow down?

I wanna let go of reins a little bit.
Let me see my world in my own time
I believe my precious time would come soon :)

JUDGING PERSON

One thing that crossed my mind this week was, the fact about don't judge person from its first meet. Like, first impression doesn’t really explain how that person really is. And maybe love at the first sight isn’t good enough to be implied in real life. Cause the very first thing could be occured by thousand reasons that happen before. We never know in which mood the person sets him/herself right? The nicest person that I meet for second time wouldn’t be as nicest as it was before.

We oftenly just deem it on our mind that this person is blablabla and has the positive point as blablabla but the negative point such as blablabla. Some people dare enough to shoot a comment frankly, directly to that particular person. Other people daren’t to do so, and end up keeping the thought themselves. It’s a matter of how we act to anyone reflects on how we judge that person.

Or maybe human feeling is just way too fast in concluding something.

One thing that I know, that I would never know.

I would never know whether he/she really meant to do or say that to me, whether good things are really good, whether bad things are really bad.

“you might hate something and it’s good for you; and perhaps you love something and it’s bad for you. God knows, while you know not”

Sacrificing Thing

Always fascinated when I see someone who sacrifices anything for the sake of many people. Simply look at that man who stands the whole day beneath the sun beam controlling the traffic. He let his skin get tanned. And also other people who do such thing that takes  some parts of either his/her life or body to complete other people's need.

They just precede people's business. That simple. Eventhogh it's hard to do, but that could be life worth living.

I salute them all for their aspiring intention to help people, in a real way. It's like they are made of full of strength and willingness which not everyone could have. That just impressed me and challenged me if I could do such sacrifice like them.

How far have you done sacrificing things?

You Can, We Can

Have you ever heard, ‘It’s not important how people compliment you, it’s just for the sake of the world. But you need to seek for obedience in praising Almighty Allah, seek for blessing from God, for the sake of your hereafter.’

It’s not a big thing to have thousand people on social media such as facebook, twitter, instagram or path and on earth saying that you’re beautiful, you’re so kind, you’re great and you’re perfect. Because it’s just a mere word. It doesn’t change anything but probably making your heart feel ‘bigger’. And it will lead to be one of the arrogant person who walks on earth. Feeling like you’ve been doing great things on this earth.

But you’re not.

You might take those compliment as a turning point that will make yourself to always be a better person. It’s like, ‘oh I’ve got this one, then I’ve got to have another big one, then I’ve got to have another bigger than this’, and keeps remaining like that. Cause feeling like you’ve been okay, feeling satisfied of yourself are just gonna make yourself ease in your comfort zone. People say that we gotta go out of our comfort zone, and there; we can do more and more. By going out of the circles of your comfort zone, you might find another challenge that you gotta face. Another problem that you gotta solve. Another thing that you gotta handle with your best. Those are things which gonna take you to always increase the capacity of yourself. Increase the ability that you’ve been proud of. You can actually do much better than that. You, whether you directly think about it or not and whether you have a confidence to say that ‘you can’ or not, will always need to believe that YOU CAN; That you still have these times remaining of your life, to create a better you, to create the new you, to be one of those your dream great person you’ve been dreaming to be. Then you can use every chance and every time that you have on earth to make it.

Guess we can’t loose our time too much. Have that on mind that, if you can create things in good and best condition, why do you have to choose creating the usual and common one?

You can. We Can.