Thank you, Time

Afterall I’ve been through,

Definitely would like to thank time, for teaching me how, and bigger HOW in comprehending and accepting the fact in this life

Giving me patient lesson, more than I ever imagine

Seeking for a value in every little thing I thought I’d missed

With time, I started to know that it doesn’t take few time to finally see the whole problem

Gathering some proofs and adequate data wouldn’t be completed without time

Til finally, here comes the point where you eventually realize which way you choose

To finally make a step

Brand new one, heavy but strong one

A knife

One day I got an errand to peel off some fruits.

I immediately dragged my ass to the chair, grabbed a knife then began to peel it. As a human whose mom always got her daughter a peeled off fruit already at house, I was completely stiff in controlling the knife I held. It took days until I able to taste it. Plus, I didn't make such straight pathway of fruit rind when I peeled it off, until that time.
I found 'nother knife.
The smaller, thinner and surely it's a perfect sharp knife. Then I managed to peel the fruit better with it. I didn't cut the fruit excessively so more body of fruits were able to be eaten. I peeled it faster.

Then I think, how good it's like to be a sharper knife. Just a simple knife that able to do much, to give more, to handle great things without taking too long time to finish. I believe sharper knife has a long way to finally became what he is now.

Tangerang
12 Mei 2017

Hope and New Hope

It's how much you eagerly want to put your hope alive, hang out, right there on your deepest heart, within your untainted mind. Even though thousand obstacles emerge distracting it, you got million ways to overcome it and zillion reasons in making that hope bear up making decent serenity upon mind; like preserving those flowers to be bloomed in any circumstances.

Quote from Mom

Today my mom just emphasized, you don't need to be worried, when you lost walking at long and winding road, when you got stuck in the middle of reaching your goal, when you got heaps of complicated problems.

There's always a reason why you succeed at one thing, and failed at one other thing. There's always something to learn in the middle of your journey of life.

Cause you got this Best Scenario Planner, Allah, she continued.

JUDGING PERSON

One thing that crossed my mind this week was, the fact about don't judge person from its first meet. Like, first impression doesn’t really explain how that person really is. And maybe love at the first sight isn’t good enough to be implied in real life. Cause the very first thing could be occured by thousand reasons that happen before. We never know in which mood the person sets him/herself right? The nicest person that I meet for second time wouldn’t be as nicest as it was before.

We oftenly just deem it on our mind that this person is blablabla and has the positive point as blablabla but the negative point such as blablabla. Some people dare enough to shoot a comment frankly, directly to that particular person. Other people daren’t to do so, and end up keeping the thought themselves. It’s a matter of how we act to anyone reflects on how we judge that person.

Or maybe human feeling is just way too fast in concluding something.

One thing that I know, that I would never know.

I would never know whether he/she really meant to do or say that to me, whether good things are really good, whether bad things are really bad.

“you might hate something and it’s good for you; and perhaps you love something and it’s bad for you. God knows, while you know not”

Crossed Words

No matter how that classic thing may sound, it means the world for someone else. People have different perspective after all. And we need to appreciate others'.

Words

27 of july

Things did fly so fast. Now I am at Pekalongan, my beloved village. Hmmm now I want to talk about the words that we utter. Do you realize that every word that comes out from the mouth may be the words that ease someone else’s feeling? Do you realize that words can be sucha healer for someone but at some point can be a killer too? 

I met this person whose word she uttered was all like an angle’s whisper. She made my shattered mind turn to be well-minded mind. It’s just that simple word, but came as a huge wave that just swept the trash over the sand of my heart. It’s like there’s a wind that blew dust of despair out of my heart and came as a fresh air which swing my heart. 

I was so impressed, indeed. The light bulb over my head shines again, giving the energy to keep stepping up to the path which only God knows what’s coming; to keep doing things in the name God until only God knows when we stop; to keep struggling to this journey which only God knows where its end. 

As long as we have the chance, it's time to utter words which can be beneficial for others. Though most times we don’t have a chance to think first before uttering the words, it’s never wrong to try it. Try to utter words which can send sparkles to someone’s mind and light them up. Who knows that the last word we utter in this world to anybody could change big things in a good way?

selfishness

Selfishness

Things that can drive us crazy.

That feeling when things happen and put ourselves in victory. That moment when we feel the joy of things. Do we know that beyond our joy, there are probably people out there feel the inconvenient of our joy?

Let’s take a glimpse to look around. Whether it’s alright or not. Whether something fakes other things or just real. Whether something work the way it is.

Until it comes to time when our jolt of conscience whisper to our mind that there’s something wrong. Something doesn’t fit to be owned. Something that feels odd.

Selfish. We get what we want, other people don’t. Cares about ourselves, not to others.

Don’t let selfishness exist there next to us. Throw that away instead.

We can feel precious most of the time without knowing what might impact us afterwards. What hurts more are the moment when we realize that we’ve been being so selfish to some people for some reasons. Hurts to know the fact that we’ve harmed people.

Before things get worse, let the consciousness of ours recognize it

Realize and fix things

Before things end up not the way we wanted

Before things ruin other things

Although it takes time to realize

But as long as we can do our best to keep realizing what we’ve done, we can always correct things wrong in ourselves, creating ourselves to be born as the better one

Grab the opportunity!

Another journey has to be taken a look at by you. Assume this situation as someone who wants to see a beautiful scenery from the window. The windows isn’t really clean so somebody has to wipe it clearly, make it clean out of dust and give it some squirt of window cleanser. And there you go, the awesome scenery can be seen thoroughly. That situation is similar just like  what we’re about to go through, the dreams. We want to get it yet it has to begin from ourselves. Clean our mind out of the negative thinking upon someone or something. Clean our heart out of the feeling that might emerge hatred upon someone. Clean our mouth out of words that might hurt other people. Clean ourselves out of the behavior that might lead us to the wrong path. Life’s too short to do something that might let ourselves closer to hell. Wouldn’t life be more beautiful by getting closer to heaven?

Hence, i myself believe that every one of us has opportunity to make life be more meaningful and make dreams come true. So grab it then make dreams happen!

LUCK

What's so right about luck? Luck, which is there, inside anyone's self. Does anyone have different luck with each other? Does luck influence one's life? I think it does. It does depend. Depends on what kind of mankind it is. But everything not always depends on luck yet luck does happen in everything. Luck would come over in particular times, although they are not always there when needed.

How if someone got over luck? Like every times in one's entire life flooded with luck. Or how if someone got lack of luck? Not to mention myself but I feel like I have less luck though. Didn't mean to say that I'm the unlucky one but how if that occurred to me or to anyone? And I guess not only me, whose luck is rather low than others....Didn't mean to complain about how much luck I got but I kept questioning myself a why. Somewhat it comes up like "Could this be what I was destined for?"

Until I caught up into a lesson why it could be that way. Maybe I wasn't Born This Way Like Lady Gaga's song yet I Was Born To Be Somebody like Justin Bieber's song. We don't even know when our luck would come through ourselves yet we don't know when they're gone. Somewhat mystic. It's actually God's secret. Luck is God's gift to us. It depends on His grace, How much grace God would like to give to us. That what makes it different. Gift upon anyone is different with each other and we would always have our turn to be given that 'thing', that luck. Every one has their own luck. It's not about envying to anybody whose luck is countless or questioning ourselves a why we're dealing with, but it's all God's way. God always has plans for us. We all have just to be patient and be grateful of what God has given to us. There's no way we could be whining or complaining about the luck. This is fate. Alter destiny? Possibility, there is. yet everything always back to God's way.