Senja kala itu

Ku nikmati pancaran sang surya
Yang menghanguskan gundah gulana
Serasa enggan, tuk beranjak dari sana
Alur ini, yang terus kurasa

Buyarkan segala imaji
Kokohkan asa
Genggam eratlah janji
Kepada Tuhan-Mu selama ini

Apapun itu nikmati sajalah, hati

Kau siap berlari-lari di taman mimpi kan?

Yogyakarta, 4 Oktober 2018

Sore itu duduk di rerumputan hijau, disambut hembusan angin yang melenakan, dengan alunan lagu Aku Tenang nya Fourtwnty yang terdengar sayup dari sudut kompleks Ratu Boko.
MasyaAllah, suasana Jogja.

A story that never unravel

You are a series of story

Unspoken, hidden and blurry

Piece of written paper

Ready to be sent to a receiver

-LL-

Road to be a dentist: sayangilah pasien dan waktu

Trus baru aja aku update:

Karna suatu hari, yang biasa ngasih coklat, akan kalah sama yang ngasih seperangkat alat sholat.

Dan pasienku, bales; Aamin.

MasyaAllah. Di Amin-in sama orang yang sekedar baca,

Ini baru orang yang kuketahui mengaminkannya, belum orang lain yang ku tak tahu ternyata mengamini doaku juga 0:)

Btw jadi inget pasienku pas koas

kalau dipikir-pikir, koas itu penuh momen-momen magis

aku bisa ketemu sama abang goj*ek, yang mau jadi pasienku, dan mau bolak-balik untuk dirawat giginya

gak ada ikatan apapun, ikatan darah atau apa. Sebatas ikatan dua orang tak saling kenal yang segera sepakat begitu saja; tiba tiba aja.

Ada juga yang dengan niatannya mau membantuku menyelesaikan tugas koas ku.

Sacrifice their body, mind, money and time. Yes, definitely time. Things Allah has swore upon at.

Entah aku harus balas apa, ke semua pasien malaikat macam ini.

Ku doakan tentunya, semoga dilancarkan segala urusannya.

Aku percaya Allah insyaAllah akan balas kebaikan Anda.

Dan semakin tersadar, aku ini bukan apa-apa, siapa-siapa, gimana-gimana.

Mungkin balasan yang bisa ku kasih adalah bekerja sebaik mungkin memegang amanah dipundakku ini; sebagai dokter gigi yang mengabdi dengan tulus ikhlas ke masyarakat negeri ini.

Tangerang Selatan
16 September 2018

Someday in June 2018

It’s the last 10 days of Ramadhan

And it’s raining

It was in the middle of the night

And the rain fell just as the tear streamed down my face

The sound of the rain falling upon the roof and the ground made my heart peace, easy, as if its problem fly away upon the sky

So does the hope upon this heart

So does the prayer that going up

It’s so beautiful

Road to be a dentist: sacred moment

April 12th, 2018

The moment where you’re back to that most serious moment of your life, the dentist national exam simulation. Suddenly it turned to be this sacred moment.
It was just a simulation, but to us, fellow dentist soon to be, it was one of legendary moment to remember. 

We’re called “Assalamualaikum calon rekan sejawat”.
And suddenly I asked myself, am I about to literally end this journey?

and then we were allowed to pray.
It was one of solemn pray session ever..... the silence almost made me burst into tears, it's so touching, all the surface of my heart

Wallahu a'lam bishawab.
La haula wala quwwata illa billah.

Check Point

Hey 14^th april already. Right at this second

Been having some other roller coasters, you know.

Today has come to conclusion that I am so grateful to have the chance studying dentistry.

People may think it’s not an easy peasy thing.

But in here, I got beyond terrific experiences indeed.

First of all, my campus mostly filled with girls. So I kinda feel protected in here, in a good way.

Second of all; I learnt to rise right after I fell off.

I learnt to not fall too deep onto something.

I learnt to have some specific acceleration graphic to move on.

There’s also this particular oral test that pretty much challenging.

There’s this moment when all you have to do is smile, and just swallow what went off right in front of you.

Day by days I realized that there’s really nothing you can do to wish something change for a good reason, but trusting Almighty Allah.

Days where you’re about to meet the end of the road, you realize that you really nothing in this world. You really got no power, but coming from Allah’s.

Kalau bukan karena Allah, maka mustahil aku bisa melakukan ini semua.

Kalau bukan untuk Allah, maka aku gak akan sampai disini, aku bisa saja masih terjatuh.

Kalau bukan oleh Allah, maka aku gak akan selamat pulang pergi Serpong- Salemba.

The moment where, you know you’re at your worst day but you can’t emphasize its feeling anymore to yourself and anyone, and all you need to do is seeking for motivation from anywhere, like literally anywhere you have to rise your spirit up for no matter what.

I’ve said that I was the least convincing person. And life challenge me with that. How was I going to make my lecturers convinced of my words?

If it’s not from Allah, there’s no way I could pass that.

Lean On Him

Today I learnt about hope

That flies upon the sky

Everyday

I pray

So does everyone,

who hopes something better everyday

who hopes something good even though it’s heart-rending at the first place

Hopefully we will always be given the chance to put ourselves closer to Allah, lean on him every hopes we got, let him decide, get the best from Him

I trust whatever result that may come from The Best Scenario Writer in This Life,

and will always put my trust on You

Something New

All I know is this certainty that I have The Most Justice, Who knows what suits us best.

Life is too short to curse bad things that just happened in our life.

I believe everything happens for a reason.

Better off to look at the mirror doing self-reflection.

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Berawal dari curhatan tahun 2017 ini, saya akan menerjemahkannya ke bahasa Indonesia. Kayaknya ini ditulis ketika ada suatu hal yang terjadi, dan aku pikir orang pertama yang harus nenangin diri ini ketika goyah adalah diri ini sendiri. Mungkin begitulah mengapa blog ini tetap bertahan. Sebuah kumpulan frasa yang tujuannya untuk diri sendiri dulu, syukur-syukur bisa ke orang lain. Kumpulan cerita yang pada akhirnya bersifat self-motivating. Jadi, seburuk-buruknya hal buruk terjadi, ingat terus deh kata-kata macam ini:

Aku cuma tahu sebuah kepastian dimana aku punya Yang Maha Adil, Yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita.
Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk mengutuk hal-hal buruk yang baru saja terjadi pada kehidupan kita.
Aku percaya segala sesuatu terjadi karena suatu alasan.
Sudahlah, lebih baik melihat cermin melakukan refleksi diri.

Today I Learnt

Today

I learnt about something not-today

It asked you to wait, it asked you to try harder with the whole of your heart

Check if something you do isn’t because of Almighty Allah

--

Today I

Learnt something about border, and choice

Where people prefer the one with the look, and left the other with different appearance

--

Today I learnt

About missing friend when I need them the most

It’s always been like this, maybe this is just what they feel

But let’s reflect more of what I did the other day

Prolly I could've been doing the same things too

--

Today I learnt about

Negligence

Something that actually could ever be conducted

But aborted only because of a little tiny stone that hinders

I thought we could actually move the obstacles together

But they choose to not move a muscle

--

Today I learnt about a pride

Those high standards people put to some people below them

--

Today I also learnt about people’s trait

How a group could turn to be having the same exact basic character

Too bad the character was negative

So they spread wounds together

Little did I know they actually share a tiny lesson

--

Today I learnt about hope

That flies upon the sky

Everyday

I pray

So does everyone

Who hopes something better everyday

Who hopes something good even though it’s devastated at the first place

--

Today I learnt about a wound

And not worth crying over for

Only because the culprit just want us to get it

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Today I learnt

To hold onto this pole called faith

I will always have a faith on You, Ya Rabb...