Sebuah kombinasi pas yang baru aku temui
Senikmat kopi hangat terenak yang pernah ku pesan
Siapa yang sangka, ku akan memulai hari itu
Tubuhku saat itu bernafas lebih lapang
Mungkin dari udara pagi yang kuhirup lebih segar
Bisa juga dari langit biru itu
Cerahnya mewakili seisi langit yang menyapa
Merasa aneh, dari rangkaian hari ini
Tubuhku belum terlalu pandai membaca semesta
Terik matahari pagi yang memaksa
Untukku pergi melindungi jiwa
Tangerang Selatan, Maret 2020
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Today my heart was flattered
my aunt called my uncle for me
he said like, I pray for you always, only you, all the best for you
in the middle of my working hour
it really touched my heart
permeate thru my deepest soul
but I had to control myself
I gulped so hard
holding back tears
right at the Ashar prayer
I finally burst into tears
hoping that Allah will repay the good deeds my uncle does to me
so does the other people out there
who pray for me
whether it's my friends, relatives, or the one who has prayed for me once
that's the sweetest human thing
He's pretty much the one who knew me well after my dad
knew all my story and such
It wasn't easy for me
but I know, out there, people are struggling way harder than me
I was just given a little.
Assalamualaikum. First post in 2021 is here finally!
The year has just turned into the 2nd month but it feels like I had as many stories as a year. This year began with the battle. Fighting against my ego, as well as the virus, striving to protect myself, my family, and relatives who had been infected from worse symptoms. For the record, this was the first time I literally jump right out of my comfort zone. The zone I hardly leave, this time I was forced to snap out of it. When I need time to be alone, detached, and out of reach, I was given that chance for an 'enough' time. It's like when I think I need a break from people and the world, here came that time. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.
The world isn't just about you but the people surround you.
4 days to 2021
Can't wait to embrace a new beginning. New story and hopefully new chapter as well.
2020 has been about the doors to me. Once a door has closed, God assured us there're another thousand doors open for you. Pretty much a guide in our map of life saying: not there, not that way.
You'll be shown obviously the bright side.
It's actually never a rejection door for you.
It's selectively lead you to your best road. You just have no idea.
But My Lord knows things best. You could only figure out things this far, but Allah has figured beyond what humans can ever think of. So, why bother worrying?
Life is beautiful, so is the world honey.
... But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.
QS Al Baqarah : 216
South Tangerang, December 27th
In a world with full of ups and down
We should get used to rejection and denial
You wanna know what's better?
Having someone said rejection and denial in the first place
Rather than acceptance from someone in the beginning but ended up rejecting yourself or your ideas
Thanks to those persons who become my teacher who taught me that refusal
Turned out, they deserved an appreciation
Thanks for making it easier for me so I don't have to feel that fatigues from accepting
It builds my heart wider and wider so if there's any speck of stain, it won't break the whole milk (Indonesian proverb)
28th Sept 2018
Kamu bilang hatimu seluas samudra
Pundakmu sekuat baja
Sudah dilakukan segala usaha
Tapi terhenti katamu apa daya
Tentang membuka hati berarti memulai
Membenahi dan memperbaiki diri
Terimakasih telah menghampiri
Hai sesosok yang menginspirasi
Katamu setiap orang datang ada maksud
Apapun itu ku yakin Allah Maha Tahu
Mungkin karna diri ini masih baru
Ku percayakan kepada Allah segala kelabu
me and my sin
as much as the froth over the sea
countless, spread, and exist
what an empty soul
not sure exactly what is good anymore
it's a mixture of hurting, blaming and much more
forget where to put things you can't control
the froth covers the clear pure water
as if making good scenery underneath unseen
while begging to the Almighty to wipe my froth
Allah is All Merciful, all I know
nonetheless, I realize the froth pretty much adds lesson to me
