You Can, We Can

Have you ever heard, ‘It’s not important how people compliment you, it’s just for the sake of the world. But you need to seek for obedience in praising Almighty Allah, seek for blessing from God, for the sake of your hereafter.’

It’s not a big thing to have thousand people on social media such as facebook, twitter, instagram or path and on earth saying that you’re beautiful, you’re so kind, you’re great and you’re perfect. Because it’s just a mere word. It doesn’t change anything but probably making your heart feel ‘bigger’. And it will lead to be one of the arrogant person who walks on earth. Feeling like you’ve been doing great things on this earth.

But you’re not.

You might take those compliment as a turning point that will make yourself to always be a better person. It’s like, ‘oh I’ve got this one, then I’ve got to have another big one, then I’ve got to have another bigger than this’, and keeps remaining like that. Cause feeling like you’ve been okay, feeling satisfied of yourself are just gonna make yourself ease in your comfort zone. People say that we gotta go out of our comfort zone, and there; we can do more and more. By going out of the circles of your comfort zone, you might find another challenge that you gotta face. Another problem that you gotta solve. Another thing that you gotta handle with your best. Those are things which gonna take you to always increase the capacity of yourself. Increase the ability that you’ve been proud of. You can actually do much better than that. You, whether you directly think about it or not and whether you have a confidence to say that ‘you can’ or not, will always need to believe that YOU CAN; That you still have these times remaining of your life, to create a better you, to create the new you, to be one of those your dream great person you’ve been dreaming to be. Then you can use every chance and every time that you have on earth to make it.

Guess we can’t loose our time too much. Have that on mind that, if you can create things in good and best condition, why do you have to choose creating the usual and common one?

You can. We Can.

19 already :D

Things passed then gone. Things moved and turned.

Here I am. Against this very night which always perfect to write a thing. Even though I never write one kind of decent story,  I write down what's going up in mind. So here I am turning to 19-it’s old enough to be called as grown up- even since i was 18 actually. So, maturity also needs to move on. They can’t stay forever in the same exact point.

Here I am wanting to move again;

Hoping to change myself to be one of those strong woman who can get rid of the weakness that people always utter to me; about being late and sleepyhead and every damn weak thing. 

Expecting to always be better every day, cause yesterday was something I couldn’t cling on to. 

I gotta create my tomorrow, cause it’s my own effort which can paint the wall of my future world. 

Also need to lessen my mouth out of whining, cause sincerity is what ease my soul better. 

Gotta use my remaining time on earth properly to get some prosperity, cause time always spins as a minute passed by every 60 second and you can’t waste it -any of it- ; To do something useless; To think about things which likely make you suffocate and lost and devastate. 

See the universe, not to utter the word which isn’t well-hearing.

And however, I gotta make myself suit with the reflection of the moslem women in general ;)

Lego Camera

i'm gonna pick up the pieces

and build a lego camera

if things go wrong we can knock it down

-Ed Sheeran's Lego House

Words

27 of july

Things did fly so fast. Now I am at Pekalongan, my beloved village. Hmmm now I want to talk about the words that we utter. Do you realize that every word that comes out from the mouth may be the words that ease someone else’s feeling? Do you realize that words can be sucha healer for someone but at some point can be a killer too? 

I met this person whose word she uttered was all like an angle’s whisper. She made my shattered mind turn to be well-minded mind. It’s just that simple word, but came as a huge wave that just swept the trash over the sand of my heart. It’s like there’s a wind that blew dust of despair out of my heart and came as a fresh air which swing my heart. 

I was so impressed, indeed. The light bulb over my head shines again, giving the energy to keep stepping up to the path which only God knows what’s coming; to keep doing things in the name God until only God knows when we stop; to keep struggling to this journey which only God knows where its end. 

As long as we have the chance, it's time to utter words which can be beneficial for others. Though most times we don’t have a chance to think first before uttering the words, it’s never wrong to try it. Try to utter words which can send sparkles to someone’s mind and light them up. Who knows that the last word we utter in this world to anybody could change big things in a good way?

Inspiration?

again, there's something that lead me to this kind of thought again. about where i am going to bring my self at. honestly, i haven't planned that much about who i am going to be. and related to passion, i think i got a lot of nice things to follow. but again, we can never reach what we want in one exact time. time rules again. try to reach it step by step, one by one

bingung. asli. kalo mikirin itu diri gue ngerasa lemah....... dan masih bertanya-tanya, gue kuatnya dimana, dan ngapain

emang sih, im in a learning process now
i am the one who's still learning, still searching, still loading
people say living in this world is just for a while, so make it best
how am i going to make it best if there's still one wall that hinders me with words; can you?
can i be like one of those people who happen to deliver a lecture about being someone best on earth?
crazy, it is. those kind of people always amaze me. kok bisa sih mereka?
when would i?

i think it starts from me making some life plan, at least organize what thing i'm about to do to the next 6 months
you know when i was in long holiday last year, i planned to create some articles and send it to some publisher on newspaper or such, but not any glimpse of them was ever conducted. WHY?
because i always take thing ain't important if it's not related to one-big-important thing

so?
there's nothing wrong to think about what you want to achieve to the next 6 months, a year later, 5 or even 10 years later. let's make a plan! but before, you have to make a list about what your passion is, and choose what you really  like to do on earth. then collaborate it, probably with the major you're studying now. then you might see some possibility in your future until you really meet that time when you reach your goals

Straight Line

Today i faced another sick situation
i don't know whether people now tend to turn to be cruel or just the world which makes them change
i was shock knowing the fact that one insignificant and trivial thing could change person

someone did, but it's pretty inappropriate if i tell it here, so i'm just gonna tell someday

So, some people now start being out of the mind. they forget to keep themselves in sanity, they forget the path where they should be standing at
We know the world has the ability to change people, but that doesn't mean we can't overcome its bad affect to ourselves
Let the world flow, cause we can't control it. but we still can control ourselves and make sure we're walking in the straight line
Let's just walk in a right way so another good traces will be found, which may lead us to  straight-positive way
If we walk through the good and clean land, we would enjoy it as well, and vice versa, dirty land would just create loss instead and won't be convenient
People are allowed to think based on their own principle they profess, but one important thing that people still need to keep is one little pure thing called conscience 

An Irritating Person

i was walking at some open store selling some clothes the other day and my friend was asking me to buy her a white blouse. so i need to capture the blouses then sending it to her phone so she could consider which one she'd choose. but when i passed that store whose clothes i wanted to capture....

storekeeper : what the hell you're doing?
me : i was about to capture that clothes and send them to my friend
storekeeper : what? don't you ask for permission first? (with an outrage upon her resentful face, which makes her look creepy) (........and what i remember the most was her eyebrow, it went up and down almost fell down to her face and made her micro-expression even look more terrible) (...ah yeah and her tone was completely insulting like wanting me to fight with her)
me : ah yeah, ok, i want to capture that clothes to my friend (just realized that i had to ask for permission first and tried to arrange my word and tried to sound cool) 
storekeeper : the hell with it, ask for permit first (the tone was completely more insulting until it penetrated to my heart like a sharp needle) (....she was completely out of her mind to say the word which made her possibly-next-buyer feel inconvenient) ( and....i felt sick to face this person who didn't have a such thing called manner) 
another creepy storekeeper : what's happen?
storekeeper : she wanted to capture this clothes
another creepy storekeeper : that one? no no, don't allow them, don't, don't, don't.... ( a half of that asking-me-to-drive-away tone )
me : thank you

THANK YOU
the last word i said to those horrible storekeepers, completely with that indescribable peevish face.
i was about to say another filthy word as i walked away from that store, but fortunately there's something that held me to say that and be quiet instead. i even still loathe the way she talked til now.

but yeah, let bygone be bygone

if i look at the bright side, saying thank you was the right word to end that almost-begin war. it was actually weird to solely say thank you and walked away, but what else can i say? i uttered that thank-you word also because there's something that held me here, right in my heart

i got this faith. faith to hold this anger to that irritating person. faith to keep myself in sanity. faith to behave as a human. as a girl. as a muslimah

she might be in a high tension, in a period or anything which made her lost all of the nice word and tone  as a normal-kind storekeeper used to say. the other side, me, also forgot to ask for permission first cause i thought it would never mind just like what i did before. But, wouldn't it be nice if you asked me smoothly in a polite way, dear lady?

bright side again, if i hadn't faced this thing, i would never know that people like her is exist in this world.

So, be nice to anything, anyone, anywhere, in any way. just in case if you find a person like her. Cause we never know what condition is going on inside someone else's self :)